Ya, the project enhancement rollout failed emoticon, I feel so depressed and this is the first time I rollout the project unsuccessful due to small mistake it made, and user reluctant to hear the changes and can’t accept the reason at last minutes. Actually rollout project failed shouldn’t a big issue, but, the main issue is I feel so de-motivated to work in this type of environment that without anyone support.

After working for 7 years, this is the first time I feel sad and depressed. User has been warned very early stage that they will complaint to the head of section, especially after the management politic between IT and user; they are looking for more troublesome to me.

Just now while the process announced failed need to rollback, I think my vendor and my colleagues are so worried that I will scold them, look at them, I feel bad, so, I keep quiet and not scolding them, I just walk away and not thinking to talk to anyone. Actually inside my heart, I know they have been trying their best too. Just I don’t know how I can face the Monday user’s complaint email and maybe later team lead questioning. I think I was tired with all the question they going to ask. emoticon

Sometime Basri said I take everything very serious and perfection. For me, honestly, passion, satisfaction is my goal and happy source that can keep me motivate and work continually, else I will feel I’m a robot who just work for money. Anyway, perhaps I will learn to don’t take people’s comment so personally, and work out my way. emoticon “KAM-PAI-TEI”