These few weeks I have been busy with the project enhancement rollout, with the user’s high expectation, and management politic, I have sometime that stayed under the depress and emotion time.

Last week because over stress, my body giving a different signal, and found something inside my urine, I was scared and worried about my health. I visited a clinic; the doctor can’t detect anything, and told me maybe I have the urine infection. After few days, I found out something really wrong, I decided to visit the women specialize doctor, and after he checked, he told me is a bile inside my urine, and it shouldn’t happened on the young girl age like me. :o He suggested me to take the blood test again.

The good thing is doctor said my body always will give me a signal in the early stage, thanks GOD! I think I starting to love my body and starting to understand my body more. After taking the blood test, the doctor told me the report is ok, he suspect when I over tension, or mental problem, the body will change and provide some abnormal reaction. He suggests me to take some rest and take it easy. Mental stress is very dangerous to our health.

Sometime I wish I can choose to not involve in the management politic, but, no choice when thing just get into it, and I have to face it. The more I meet this type of thing, the more I think I am not suitable to work in this type of environment. I understand that my position is getting more and more into this type of politic involvement situation, and begging people to work on something, sometime I think I really need to work out something for myself, instead of keep sitting here to stress on it. I believe soon and later, my burden and stress of the work will increasing, because no one will just paid you to sit here and do nothing, or choosing what I like to do, sometime is really out of management control and my control.

I always believe we can pass over and face the tough time, just in between we will complaint and stress ourselves, but, is it the life we want in the long run? Maybe we have to ask ourselves and make the positive and mental adjustment. - Alison