Loving Life of Basri & Alison

 

We surprisingly received presents from 2 of my best friends (sisters)

- Looi and Kenneth (Canada) & Melissa and Eng Hui (UK)

from far away, very touching, thanks for the present and the token that both of you gave us!!! We are appreciating a lot and thanks for the wishes. I really don’t know how to express my feeling now, but, I will only know that friendship forever and both of you always my best sister to share every single thing with me.

These few days are quite busy for us, yesterday we just started busy to prepare the table arrangement and list, helping my parent print out the entire list, the most difficult part is the Chinese name! Gosh! I think I have been forgot all the “han-yu-pin-ying” already, that tough for me to type 100 persons Chinese name in a short night.

I think I only can feel the wedding preparation these 2 days, I think should be consider ok. I’m still in Singapore, we only travel back to Malaysia tonight (Thursday), then, tomorrow will busy to pick-up my parent-in-law fly from Indonesia, pick-up my dress and gown etc.

The most important thing I feel now is I’m happy because we got all our friends wishes, and helps, although some of friends can’t make it to attend our wedding, I think we can feel their sincerity and glad to hear some advice while we are start preparing the wedding. Thank you very much.

Ok. Need to pack the thing and leave soon. I will post more after my wedding. Meanwhile, wish everyone have an enjoyable December Christmas celebration.

~~Birthday celebration~~

28th Nov - Allen Chia. so, wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY and get your "dream" girl as soon as possible. :p

3rd Dec - Melissa Kam. Hi, sis, wish you happy birthday and have an enjoyable celebration with Eng Hui and Cameron. miss you a lot!

19th Dec - Chai Shim. Hey! pretty girl! wish you have a enjoyable birthday celebration, and have a healhty body.

27th Dec - Lee Szee. Hey! don’t worry too hard, remember your birthday coming, and do enjoy and pamper yourself.

29th Dec - Karyn Lim. Happy birthday to you, my dearest friend. enjoy it and wish you have a happy and lovely day with my wishes.

~~ANNIVERSARY~~

3rd Dec - Happy Anniversary to Chris and Daryl. wish both of you happy and lovely forever.

~~EVENT~~

3rd Dec - Wedding date: Basri & Alison. We wish everyone will enjoy the day.

25th Dec - MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone!!!! wish all of you have an enjoyable christmas celebration with your love one and friends.

Ya, the project enhancement rollout failed , I feel so depressed and this is the first time I rollout the project unsuccessful due to small mistake it made, and user reluctant to hear the changes and can’t accept the reason at last minutes. Actually rollout project failed shouldn’t a big issue, but, the main issue is I feel so de-motivated to work in this type of environment that without anyone support.

After working for 7 years, this is the first time I feel sad and depressed. User has been warned very early stage that they will complaint to the head of section, especially after the management politic between IT and user; they are looking for more troublesome to me.

Just now while the process announced failed need to rollback, I think my vendor and my colleagues are so worried that I will scold them, look at them, I feel bad, so, I keep quiet and not scolding them, I just walk away and not thinking to talk to anyone. Actually inside my heart, I know they have been trying their best too. Just I don’t know how I can face the Monday user’s complaint email and maybe later team lead questioning. I think I was tired with all the question they going to ask.

Sometime Basri said I take everything very serious and perfection. For me, honestly, passion, satisfaction is my goal and happy source that can keep me motivate and work continually, else I will feel I’m a robot who just work for money. Anyway, perhaps I will learn to don’t take people’s comment so personally, and work out my way.  “KAM-PAI-TEI”

Now is 11:31pm, 18th Nov 2006. After few months torture by the nasty user and management politic, yes, the enhancement going to migrate and rollout by tonight, hopefully everything can be conclude by tomorrow morning 5:00am 19th Nov 2006, so, I can go back and sleep.

My hubby Basri want to give me the mental support, he also accompany me and not going to sleep, due to company security issue, so, he went to McDonald that near by my company to sit there and waiting for me. That’s sweet!!! Muimui touching …

The whole company is so quiet, I have been quite sometime never stay so late to do the migration rollout, and the last migration was done in April 2006 midnight also. Actually compare the enhancement scope, the previous enhancement scope is huge and that time is the 1st project I was in-charged after I transferred to this new team, but I think the pressure I having now is huge and feel upset compare to the previous time, I am not so excited about this time rollout. Previously I was so excited about every migration I have, now I don’t have that feeling. I think the passion is not there due to the user and the management “tai-chi”.

Yesterday I found out another colleague who closed with me just tendered, I feel so happy for her, and at the same time I feel sad because she is leaving. We have a long tea break session to chitchat together yesterday. Due to last 2 months been very busy, I have been lost in touch with her quite sometime although we work in the same company. We have chat a lot and share a lot of thing etc. that is a good session. Just wish her all the best!

These few weeks I have been busy with the project enhancement rollout, with the user’s high expectation, and management politic, I have sometime that stayed under the depress and emotion time.

Last week because over stress, my body giving a different signal, and found something inside my urine, I was scared and worried about my health. I visited a clinic; the doctor can’t detect anything, and told me maybe I have the urine infection. After few days, I found out something really wrong, I decided to visit the women specialize doctor, and after he checked, he told me is a bile inside my urine, and it shouldn’t happened on the young girl age like me. He suggested me to take the blood test again.

The good thing is doctor said my body always will give me a signal in the early stage, thanks GOD! I think I starting to love my body and starting to understand my body more. After taking the blood test, the doctor told me the report is ok, he suspect when I over tension, or mental problem, the body will change and provide some abnormal reaction. He suggests me to take some rest and take it easy. Mental stress is very dangerous to our health.

Sometime I wish I can choose to not involve in the management politic, but, no choice when thing just get into it, and I have to face it. The more I meet this type of thing, the more I think I am not suitable to work in this type of environment. I understand that my position is getting more and more into this type of politic involvement situation, and begging people to work on something, sometime I think I really need to work out something for myself, instead of keep sitting here to stress on it. I believe soon and later, my burden and stress of the work will increasing, because no one will just paid you to sit here and do nothing, or choosing what I like to do, sometime is really out of management control and my control.

I always believe we can pass over and face the tough time, just in between we will complaint and stress ourselves, but, is it the life we want in the long run? Maybe we have to ask ourselves and make the positive and mental adjustment. - Alison

   

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Yesterday I went to Orchard with Basri and my sister-in-law to shopping and choose my dress for the wedding tea ceremony in Malaysia. it’s been long time since i last shopped at Orchard road. It still the happening place and the most important is I totally can feel the Christmas atmosphere there!!! All the decoration has been put up. You can see the decoration at the street, inside and outside shopping center. Christmas tree and Christmas song is everywhere. Ya! The feeling is so strong, I love Christmas and I live this atmosphere.

Hahaha… I think I need to dig my Christmas tree out from my store room already, and starting to decorate it. Every year I also wish I can have an enjoyable Christmas time, gathering with friends, sharing the feeling of the whole year, tea time with  friends … etc but, always impossible.

Anyway, CHRISTMAS IS AROUND THE CONER! COME’ON! Let us start the preparation and welcome this peaceful time coming.

Haha… these few days been very busy with my project, all the while I found out I can’t multi task, every time I only can concentrate in one job, or one project. But, recently I found out the employer request every employee must multitask. According to the research, recently employers prefer to hire women on the belief they can get "two-fers or even three-fers" who can multitask.

While many people believe women are better multitaskers and the notion has been advanced in recent books, the differences may be more cultural than cognitive. According research, there isn’t any proof of female multitasking superiority.

At first I thought why I can’t multitask, and everyone said women should good to multitask, I think that not apply to all. Ya! I saw my mom can cook, take care kid, while talking on the phone with my relative. That’s really amazing, and I think the correct way to phrase it should be multitask = housewife. They really a superwoman, like my mom.

Ok. need to go back, let chat more tomorrow. have a good weekend ahead.