Yesterday I had a very good Sunday morning, Hot Yoga with Lee Szee, then, a good lunch meeting with Lee Szee and Selena, very yummy Italian spaghetti. The chatting session is good.
Sunday night I didn’t have a good sleep. Why?! Is because “WORK”!!!!!! A stupid job and silly job (that what user comments last 2 weeks in front of me) make me think am I useless? The more I stay in this company, the more I feel myself slowly getting into a “old” people thought. L ya! I got tons of work, but, I think all this work is rubbish work, that just no ump to kick me up. :s is my problem or company problem, sometime I confuse.
Then, I think if 10 years after, would I still stay at this company???!!!! Ya! When I thrown this question to my colleagues, a lot of people will tell me “NO!” but, is it every company almost the same? Politic, boring work, nasty user etc. and how we going to ensure that we will move out from this company? New blood is so aggressive, IT line is so compete, thing is changing so fast, management is just a person who know how to talk, politic is just a place when you want to move up to higher bullshit place. Then my question is if 10 years after, would I still stay at the current rank? So, after 10 years, means I’m 40 years old, so, do I still think I can move out from this company? NO!!!! I think that time I will think “nevermind, is half of my life already” then, I will stay at this company forever?!
Then you will ask, “Hey! That is still a lot of company out there. Move out!” then, I will think is that what I want? Every company isn’t looking the same? Or should I move out from IT line? MONEY?!!! ya! I think is money problem then. Everyone is so comfort at one environment, and the money for our basic need.
Some people will think, “you will be changed while you have kid” then, I will think that what I don’t want, because of kid, so, we think everything is can stay as what as it, or we shouldn’t enjoy what we should enjoy? Everyday we have 8 hours in our work, if we cannot get something that enrich our life, then, something might be wrong, right? Kid will grow, and one day they no need you to accompany them, then, what I can do? Sometime friend will think I think too much! oh! ya! I think so, maybe I think too far, just because I don’t want to avoid it, and let thing happened, then, we will said “No choice lah, have to work lor, what to do?”
OK. I think maybe is Monday blue, that make me think so much! anyway, is just a thought to share, maybe someone can share more to me. or, should I say “that is life?!” - Alison
