Loving Life of Basri & Alison

I found out when any event happen, then you will meeting a lot of old friends from primary to friends you are meeting recently. Just because of my wedding ceremony in Dec, I found out I contacted a lot of old friend and something funny is it seems like I’m organizing a gathering. Sometime feel “pai-sei” to contact some friend that is long time not keep in touch, but, after certain time I wish to have this type of gathering, especially the special event maybe.

Think about it, on the wedding dinner that night, I don’t think I have much time to chat with friend, then, I miss the chitchat session, but, I think is a good jump start to keep in touch back with old friend after that.

Previously when busy with career, relationship, new friendship etc. we always forgot about we still need to maintain the old friendship, still need to “feed” the old friendship with loving heart and care, else the friendship is getting far away from us. Sometime I found out after sometime, especially when the age getting older, the more I miss the old friendship. I don’t know whether I still have chance to get the gap close, but, hopefully will try my best to keep it up. - Alison

After these few days my emotion in the work, I understand I should adjusting my thought in positive way, I can’t always struggle myself in this type of environment, but, on the other hand, I still need to get myself survive in this type of environment for temporary period, how long? I also don’t know, and can’t estimate it. So what I should do is to adjust myself, human is flexible animal. Just as what Melissa said in her one of the post “It makes me believe that we as humans can always survive challenges when the time comes and should not let fear or doubts hinder us from progressing. Every encounter will definitely have its own risks and if we do not try, we would never know the outcome. Its just part of life, isn’t it? Most importantly, we get to cherish and learn from the process “(http://greedybasset.blogsome.com/2006/09/22/yet-another-autumn/)
After some adjusting, I feel good today, and I try think in a positive way, thing seems like not that bad to survive now, there still have a lot of thing to make myself happy and at least I learn from the process and come out my own cherish way. The most important thing is I find myself during the process. in this world, nothing is perfect, so, we must accept the fact, and understand it, while accept it, then, you will feel better to live it in a cherish way. - Alison

hrmm… i think i’m too emotion sometime. but, i’m glad that i have this blog to share my emotion and discuss it with friends. Don’t worry, guys and gals, i’m still surviving. After just now dinner with Basri and Chan Leong, we discussed the topic, and ya! i agreed sometime is just something that will trigger us to have this emotion. especially something out of your control. but, believe it or not, it just take time to overcome it, when it over, then, you realize you still surviving. that time you are understand the technique to handle this problem in this same environment and understand how to survive it, that call "comfort zone". amazing?!

Ya! this week i think i have 2 days emotion time with the work, calculate it, it consider a lot! maybe after few days or next month, when i come back to review this post, maybe i will think myself is so silly, and why so emotion?  Actually is not a good thing to share this type of negative thought to others. but, hopefully is my learning curve to understand myself more, and improve myself.  - Alison

ok..ok… i think i joined the wrong team. I wish to learn the siebel app, but, i find out the tool is suck, not flexible, a lot of thing has the limitation, I’m a BA, study the user requirement, and end up people told me cannot, seibel cannot done in that way??!!! what’s the joke! nevermind, I drafted the functional spec, and i wish to get the details information of the current system, no one want to share the knowledge, and everyone just busy with the other project, then, manager ask why not have the discussion to brief the team. hallo!!! if the project is .net or other internet application, i know the flexibility, and know how to study the system. but, this siebel due to the whole team too individually, i totally don’t know how to proceed. After working for 7 years, this is the first time i totally lost, and feel the failure. The worst thing i found out in this company is unless you very good in one domain, else you will need to beg everyone for something. that is a suck life to survive in this company.

I wanted to leave all this thing behind, i totally don’t think i can take this type of job environment. If you know me, how tension i was in previous company for the internet project, i still can promised to continue till the project rollout. but, with this current project, i think something really wrong, user + team + tool + management.

I think i am failed to survive here.

Deep breath!!! deep breath!!! i have to calmn down, i still have a big milestone need to accomplish - DEC Wedding. ok..ok…. i must take it easy first, maybe i should test the water of the market first.  - Alison

Yesterday Basri bought a karaoke VCD, he loves the song title "Tong Hua" (fairy story), and original singer I also don’t know who’s the guy. Why he practice? hahaha…. as a Malaysian, if you attended last time the old time wedding dinner, then you know it. I still remembered last time in Malaysia when i attend friend’s wedding, people like to have this karaoke session at the small stage, then, people like to go up and sing the song. Nowadays I think Malaysia doesn’t have this style already. But, Indonesia still has this Karaoke session, and groom must go up to the stage and sing!!!!  tell you what, I never listen Basri sing before??!!! Until now he has no choice to practice it! hahahha…. I heard the Indonesia style wedding practice is whoever go up the stage sing, the groom or the groom’s family must give the ang-pow to the singer. Hahha… that’s sound fun! Unfortunately yesterday our mike is not function properly, so, I still cannot have chance to really hear Basri singing level yet. Surprisingly he can’t read the mandarin, but, he memorizes the lyrics while he listen the song.  not bad! not bad! ***mui mui clapping hand***  hahaha… i’m thinking maybe i can play the piano, and he can sing on it. not a bad idea huh….  - Alison

Yesterday I had a very good Sunday morning, Hot Yoga with Lee Szee, then, a good lunch meeting with Lee Szee and Selena, very yummy Italian spaghetti. The chatting session is good.
Sunday night I didn’t have a good sleep. Why?! Is because “WORK”!!!!!! A stupid job and silly job (that what user comments last 2 weeks in front of me) make me think am I useless? The more I stay in this company, the more I feel myself slowly getting into a “old” people thought. L ya! I got tons of work, but, I think all this work is rubbish work, that just no ump to kick me up. :s is my problem or company problem, sometime I confuse.
Then, I think if 10 years after, would I still stay at this company???!!!! Ya! When I thrown this question to my colleagues, a lot of people will tell me “NO!” but, is it every company almost the same? Politic, boring work, nasty user etc. and how we going to ensure that we will move out from this company? New blood is so aggressive, IT line is so compete, thing is changing so fast, management is just a person who know how to talk, politic is just a place when you want to move up to higher bullshit place. Then my question is if 10 years after, would I still stay at the current rank? So, after 10 years, means I’m 40 years old, so, do I still think I can move out from this company? NO!!!! I think that time I will think “nevermind, is half of my life already” then, I will stay at this company forever?!
Then you will ask, “Hey! That is still a lot of company out there. Move out!” then, I will think is that what I want? Every company isn’t looking the same? Or should I move out from IT line? MONEY?!!! ya! I think is money problem then. Everyone is so comfort at one environment, and the money for our basic need.
Some people will think, “you will be changed while you have kid” then, I will think that what I don’t want, because of kid, so, we think everything is can stay as what as it, or we shouldn’t enjoy what we should enjoy? Everyday we have 8 hours in our work, if we cannot get something that enrich our life, then, something might be wrong, right? Kid will grow, and one day they no need you to accompany them, then, what I can do? Sometime friend will think I think too much! oh! ya! I think so, maybe I think too far, just because I don’t want to avoid it, and let thing happened, then, we will said “No choice lah, have to work lor, what to do?”

OK. I think maybe is Monday blue, that make me think so much! anyway, is just a thought to share, maybe someone can share more to me. or, should I say “that is life?!” - Alison

 HAHAHA… finally i bought my first piano in Singapore. yes! your right! i decided to continue my diploma lesson, the lesson fees here is quite exp! end up i take a lesson once a month, one hour lesson cost $80. **gosh** but, I am thinking to give it a try first. The teacher is a Russian guy, surprisingly; this teacher actually is introduced by one of my headhunter. Hahaha…  … I have visited this teacher last month, he do a lot volunteer work, using the music therapy to healing the down symptom kid, and he also teaching at the Singapore teacher training center. My first class is next Saturday, will see how… I think my hearing is not really good in music, I need to improve more at this part, so, I can listened the pop song, then play it instantly.

Oh! Ya! The piano is cost $1000, included turning and delivery. I bought it at the piano factory shop, introduced by my music teacher. This piano is second-hand piano, I think consider quite cheap with this type of piano, the quality of the sound is not bad, the touch also ok. Due to my budget, I think next time only upgrade it if needed.  

Do I have intention to teach piano? Hahaha… I am not sure now, hopefully teaching few student part-time after that, since is my interest now. Sometime I worry after the interest turn into business, it become more hectic and not that interesting already. Anyway, just try out slowly first.  - Alison